your body was fleeting act of freedom and left me here alone

I can't forget the strain you caused me
I remember every little detail , every little tear , and your voice booming in my ear.
It took so little to break me this way , to make me this way , I can't feel.
So love is no longer an option , it fled as did you.
and I've found comfort in the Love that nourished my heart with realization
now these scars remain and the tears trickle down my face
because you don't know , and you won't know , and your ignorant self continues to live
not knowing
the strain you caused me

Had VUL today :)
We had two games; one against the "Naked Newts" and the other against the "Hobits"
Super Smash Bros. our team, won BOTH games. YEEEUH.
So I basically scored two points...in a row !
Which is the best achievement in ultimate that I've ever had.
Can't wait for next week, yay LOL
Another two games in Van.

I'd like to think that today was a good day.
Not too much worrying or thinking happened, so it felt good for a change.
I went to school, did the usual and had this long ass assembly that we have every year.
After school, I was trying to find a friend that kept offering to buy me icecream;
ahaha, but i never found him.
So i just ended up going home. I decided that going to work three hours early was
way too early. So I worked out with a friend for a bit before I started.
Even though today was a chillaxed day, it felt really good because I thought about
it/him a lot less that usual. No stress, no mess.
I gotta game tomorrow, Hope we play a decent game.

Another day at school, and it still hasn't phased me...I'm GRADUATING this year!
I hope I can handle all the stress that's about to come. I am determined to work very hard.
I pray I still have a chance to redeem myself.
Tomorrow is another day at school, hope I can handle it...
I can already feel the pressure, yikes

September 2nd; the first day of school...
damn, i missed it...not gonna lie. Today was basically orientation day, so we only had to stay for two hours.
It was nice to see all my friends and aquaintances again, felt good to have a good geniune laugh with them.
A whole summer has gone by and I've just become more angry and bitter than after that awful day.
Hopefully I channel all my energy into school so I can do well. I don't want to neccessarily forget that past I had;
because my past molded me. But I want to be able to remenice or look back to the past and not hurt anymore.
I hope the mistakes of my past doesn't affect my near future...getting into a university !
I couldn't live with myself if I didn't get into university. My grade eleven marks dropped because of the
crap I went through and it's unfortunate that I can't take all that back. I would hate to dissapoint my parents
again by not getting accepted into a decent university.
I'll pray everyday for this, and I want to work hard for it.
I look forward to the day that it doesn't hurt to remember past memories; good and bad, why I cried, why I laughed...most of all, I look forward to the day that it doesn't hurt to remember him; and what he put me through.

I gave a piece of my heart away, and he crushed it in the palm of his hands
I can't have it back, no matter how hard I keep looking.
He still has it, but he doesn't know...that the longer he has it, the more I hurt.
The pain he put me through; the pain he's putting me through,
and for the millionth time my heart pains enough to cry
bitter tears that sting my face.
It's been a whole summer, and I'm still at a complete low.
It takes a brave woman to forget and a cowardly man to forget.
God save me, I can't do this anymore...I can't do this alone.